I don\u2019t remember the last time my head felt so squeezed but then, I wouldn\u2019t, would I? That\u2019s the thing when there\u2019s a lot going on and it\u2019s especially the thing when some is good and some is damn hard. You lose the ability to remember the last time for anything, you lose the ability to think ahead. But in the most intense moments you also lose the ability to see what\u2019s around you and I really, really want you and I to see this.<\/p>\n
For I\u2019m in a summer school for young writers aged 10 to, I think, 17. I\u2019m rubbish with ages, I never think of them: it\u2019s just a lot of writers together. Right now it\u2019s the quiet hour before everything kicks off and actually it\u2019s the quiet hour on the last day. <\/p>\n
We\u2019re on couches in a nice room \u2013 oh, wait, I\u2019ve got to tell you this. It\u2019s at a university and I promise you that there is a magnetic imaging resonance chamber nearby to which you appear to get access by looking clever. To enter the writers\u2019 room next door, you need a key, a swipe card and a retina scan. I don\u2019t know why that seems right to me, but it does.<\/p>\n
The writers are spread all over this place right now and by me here there are nine. Some are reading. Some are writing. And I\u2019m talking to you.<\/p>\n
Writing West Midlands<\/a> runs this summer school and all week I\u2019ve been saying I wish it had been around when I needed it. My secondary school laughed at me, teachers and pupils simultaneously, for wanting to be a writer and this summer school would\u2019ve been a boon. It would\u2019ve been the ignition I didn\u2019t know I needed and that I didn\u2019t get until many years later.<\/p>\n Only, another thing about being squeezed is that I just get increasingly stupid. Earlier this week I tried to cook something in the dishwasher. All through this week I’ve been missing turns on the drive and adding 30-40 minutes to the trip.<\/p>\n And the most stupid of all is that it took me until today to realise that the summer school did exist when I needed it. Because it does exist. I\u2019m here right now. <\/p>\n I\u2019m not 10-17, no matter how much I look it, but I am in a writing summer school and I am \u2013 okay, chiefly I\u2019m exhausted but otherwise I\u2019m invigorated and truly inspired. I don’t use that word casually. There are many of us running this and of course the summer school gets in speakers and of course they really come in for the young writers. But stuff them, I\u2019m having a great time.<\/p>\n I\u2019m working with professional writers Maeve Clarke, Joe Bennett and Holly Reaney. I\u2019m working with Writing West Midlands\u2019s Emma Boniwell and Jonathan Davidson. I\u2019m working with 20-odd young writers whose work you’ll shortly be able to read when they have novels out on Amazon.<\/p>\n And then yesterday I was working with \u2013\u00a0I mean, the kids were working with \u2013 Birmingham Young Poet Laureate Nyanda Foday<\/a>. I confessed early and readily that as much as I was looking forward to her coming in, that was mostly because she attended this summer school a couple of years ago. So she was back in the same room she had been, talking to young writers like she had been. Fantastic.<\/p>\n Plus, I do adore reading poetry. I came very late to it but I have now discovered, for instance, that 200 years ago, Christina Rossetti sat down, cracked her knuckles, and said right, I\u2019m going to upset that William Gallagher bloke. And she did. And she does. The power in poetry. I love it and I crave it and I can\u2019t do it.<\/p>\n Nyanda gave me a quite patient look, I feel, and then set all of us off writing something. Including me. <\/p>\n I cannot allow the notion that Nyanda was anything but being very nice about the end result, but she was really convincingly nice and I’m coming away from summer school just a little bit transformed. <\/p>\n And so I want to do something. Late this afternoon, the students on this writing summer school get to read their work to their families in a showcase. I want to show you mine.<\/p>\n Only you, okay? This is what I wrote. It\u2019s a piece about palimpsests, those ancient pieces of paper from a time when such things were incredibly expensive. You couldn\u2019t easily afford paper so when you had it, you wrote and wrote and wrote. You wrote over what you did yesterday. You wrote in the margins. You tried rubbing off yesterday\u2019s shopping list in order to make notes on today\u2019s news or something. Over and over, layer over layer of writing.<\/p>\n PALIMPSEST<\/p>\n The paper that we used to use is gone William Gallagher<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I don\u2019t remember the last time my head felt so squeezed but then, I wouldn\u2019t, would I? That\u2019s the thing … Continue reading
\nThe paper that we reused is gone too
\nNothing survives of our tree-based scribbles
\nNothing prevails of the accidental
\nOf our deliberate hidings and finds
\nScreens are clear and text is deleted again
\nScreens are fresh and untrodden forever
\nWe gain speed, clarity and decision
\nWe gain a permanence in typing but
\nThe people that we used to be are gone.<\/p>\n